Ming's Musings
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
A good cry!There are just times when I feel like a good cry. I used to rent Filipino drama movies and cry my heart out! Today, I watch Tyra, Montel Williams Show or Unsolved Mysteries, and await family reunions. That's a real tear-jerker for me. When an adopted son/daughter is looking for their parent and vice-versa, or simply family reunions. I dont understand why it gets me so. Maybe a part of my shattered self seeks to retrieve the other parts of myself in the universe ?! Whatever... I alway feel that a good cry is cleansing for my soul!
Sunday, March 05, 2006
DIFFICULTI was just chatting with my daughter Tifani on the phone yesterday. She lives in Heidelberg, Germany while I am calling her from California, USA. "How are you Princess?" I asked her. "I am fine mother", she answered me. "Hey, are you dating someone special?" I asked being a nosy mother. "Yeah", she affirmed. "We are kinda' dating but it's nothing serious. He's a little bit difficult." "Oh, really?" I asked getting nosier. "Mom, why am I drawn to difficult people all the time?" she asked me.
I wish I had an answer to that except that she probably inherited that trait from me. "I am drawn to difficult situations, people, places and things. If it was any easier I'd get bored." I shared to make her feel better. "I know", she agreed."I used to have a boyfriend who did everything I asked him to. I also got bored with him, although he was such a nice guy!" she added. "But don't we lose so much energy to be in a difficult situation? It's simply stressful."
"Well, I think difficult or stressful situations forces us to think and eventually we grow from it. We are old souls." I explained. "Who we?" she asked. "You and me. We bring light into people's lives, as much as people want to steal or destroy our light.It is not about winning or losing. It is about compassion. It is understanding what the other person is going through, and what makes him/her that way. In the end, we are always a better person, when we learn and grow from it. And if we don't.. the situation always repeats itself, until we learn and grow.There is no other path or shortcuts".
That's just what I personally think.
